Hello friends..I don't know whether this is the right time to discuss these things or not.but I am feeling very disturbed and don't know with whom should share these things that's why posting here.
So here is my story.. I completed my engineering last year from a tier 2 college. From campus placements I don't know maybe I was lucky I got a decent package offer from a product based company.I don't know why I did that even after getting so many negative feedbacks for not accepting the job offer.I went on with my decision to reject the offer and prepare full time for gate.. without coaching.
So , I started preparing and prepared like a maniac, from 9:00 in morning to 2:30 night . I got a good grip over all subjects except mathematics.. I was all set for the judgement day but couldn't perform. and when went through solution of some question most of them being wrong according to scholars on this website. I attempted 51 questions but am getting only 45-50 marks which is going to fetch me >2000 rank.. So no hope from gate..
I dropped one year don't have good practical skills or projects , internships while in college. So bleak chances of making it to IIIT hyderabad or ISRO. as they require mainly experienced or students with good project work internships academics . where I lag terribly.
Now I don't know what to do next..I was so much dependent on gate that I messed up every other thing.
I don't have guts to drop 1 more year doing nothing sitting at home(surrounding pressure, Increasing year gaps etc.). I know this is not the right time to discuss these things but I am feeling very frustrated.. might lead to depression..I have no one to share my feelings with .. So I thought maybe ..
I can't even express my pain when I started I aimed for AIR 1..Maybe such expectations led to this condition of mine.
When I rejected the offer everybody was against me but I went ahead..listened to nobody..Now I am left deserted all alone with no options, broken dreams.. Don't know what to do next..Even after studying that hard like a maniac I am getting nowhere.
And for me it just proves sometimes hardwork doesn't pay off..
I request admin and moderator Not to delete this post ..I just wanted to share these things with someone..I am not forcing anyone to suggest anything or motivate me or guide me just wanted to let it out ..